I Have Decided

I have decided.

I will not stop blogging. In fact, I will even push myself to blog more.

 

You might be wondering, how I come into this decision after the surprising news (or maybe shocking to some of you) which is to continue my blogging adventure?

 

 

You wanna know why?

 

 

Are you sure?

Are you sure?

Are you sure?

 

 

 

Well ok then, your persistency in curiosity win over for an explanation from me. In fact, I call this as sharing, not like I am explaining or reporting to a boss. Sensitive, you know? lol..

 

 

I have tried to pull myself back, not wanting to blog anything as long as it takes. But guess what? I feel meaningless in the past 2 days. I feel like, I am losing something which I love but I was being held back. This feeling is completely different comparing to the time when I was having my vacation. Because, during vacation, I am treasuring my hope to get as much information, photos and experiences as possible and blog them immediately once I reach home.

 

I don’t know why I am so enthusiastic to do so. Well, I guess it is mainly because of you my dear readers who are waiting eagerly for my news (although not a big number, still I am excited to do so). Being in this blogging world has intrigued me to capture every of my meaningful moment as much as possible and turn them into words and photographs. It has been almost 3 years now and still I love doing so.

 

Well, I am not doing this for others. I am doing this for myself, my family, my love one and my friends. If you read I hold existential post, you might remember that I’m a strong holder of Existential philosophy. I believe in spiritual thinking (this has nothing to do with any specific religion belief) as in why human is here, living in this Earth.

 

I tend to think beyond life and beyond death.

 

 

I am always thirst of finding the answer behind these ‘phenomenal’ – life and death. Deep inside me, I believe that if one has been given a chance to live in this beautiful world, named Earth, there must be reasons behind it. It is either to allow us to learn the meaning of life, to continue the human generation, to help others, to fight for the nation or any other reasons that is true to you.

 

Same thinking go to death. Why someone we love so much die at those particular moment? Why not earlier or why not later? Why did he die in such a place?

 

 

Have you ever wonder, why Terry Fox managed to face the challenge of death when he knew that he encountered cancer at the knee, osteosarcoma (since 1977 and he died on 1981)? Why he didn’t give up or surrender himself to God, to take his life any minutes or nano seconds? Why did he work so hard for the Marathon of Hope?

 

How Terry Fox appeal for his goal – The Marathon of Hope. This is something really touching and inspiring which I get from wikipedia. Thank you for this beautiful piece of writing from Fox:

 

 

My name is Terry Fox. I am 21 years old, and I am an amputee. I lost my right leg two-and-a-half years ago due to cancer. The night before my amputation, my former basketball coach brought me a magazine with an article on an amputee who ran in the New York Marathon. It was then when I decided to meet this new challenge head on and not only overcome my disability, but conquer it in such a way that I could never look back and say it disabled me. But I soon realized that would only be half of my quest, for as I went through the sixteen months of the physically and emotionally draining ordeal of chemotheraphy, I was rudely awakened by the feelings that surrounded and coursed through the cancer clinic. There were the faces with the brave smiles, and the ones who had given up smiling. There were the feelings of hopeful denial, and the feelings of despair. My quest would not be a selfish one. I could not leave knowing these faces and feelings would still exist, even though I would be set free from mine. Somewhere the hurting must stop...and I was determined to take myself to the limit for this cause.

 

I feel now is the time to make good my promise. I have been training for eight months, running on an artificial leg. Starting with half a mile, I have now worked up to thirteen-and-a-half a day, adding half a mile weekly. By April next year [1980], I will be ready to achieve something that for me was once only a distant dream reserved for the world of miracles; to run across Canada to raise money for the fight against cancer. The running I can do, even if I have to crawl every last mile. But there are some barriers I cannot overcome alone. We need your help. The people in cancer clinics all over the world need people who believe in miracles. I am not a dreamer and I'm not saying that this will initiate any kind of definitive answer or cure to cancer, but I believe in miracles. I have to^.

 

P/s: If he can do it, why not us?

 

Seriously, I really impressed with such people who are empowered with positive energy who dare to face death and at the same time, able to enlighten and motivate others to carry on with their life because they believe that each day can bring a different to everyone’s life. Such people  never waste any second of their life, just like Dr Randy Pausch.

 

 

So, why am I talking about all these, about Life, death and people? Because I realize that life is short and I may die any time from now. Maybe I might struck by high electrical devices while blogging about this, or earthquake hitting my place or this or so on and forth.

 

Or maybe, I might face Amnesia or Parkinson disease when I am aging. Hey, no one knows k? Not that I am cursing myself but this is a realistic world. Anything can happen to anyone of us, don’t you agree?

 

Thus, I realize that blogging can actually help me to share whatever I want, whatever I find it helpful for others in coping with their daily life – whether to share something entertaining, something touching or something informative. Also, I wish to keep a record for myself and my family (my parents, my future husband and children) so that if I am no longer living in this world, they still have a channel to ‘find me’. Or, if I encounter long-term memory lost, I still can find the ‘before me’.

 

I guess I have put too much thinking in this. Too much reflection about life. Gosh! I feel like I have orbited the whole Earth while sitting here, typing about what I feel and think. Still, this is something good to be shared right? Say yes, say yes or else, I don’t want to right jor… =)

 

In conclusion, I will continue writing and thank you to all of you have left me such a meaningful opinions and sharing. I really appreciate every words that you have contributed into my life.

 

Theme: Hope

 

I realize that career is like a peanut comparing to the real goal I wanna achieve in my life. Career is my something but my life is my everything. Thus, I don’t want to be restricted by my career if I wanna live my life to the fullest. Of course, this doesn’t mean that I will ruin my future. Instead, I will be wiser in dealing with the future conflict which I might face – as I have found a way.. =)

 

So, don’t worry. This blog will not be closed. I will not stop blogging. Good news? =)

 

 

Do wait for my next following post. This time, it is about YKN.

Stop blogging? Should I?

I feel like stop blogging and closing this blog.

 

Don’t worry. This is not an April Fool post because obviously, it is not April yet. So, this post will not end will a ‘GOTCHA’ or ‘CHEAT YA’.

 

It is neither because of I am tired of blogging and thus, wanting to stop nor being sued by a big company for posting something sensitive (like Raja Petra). None of them make sense to me because firstly, I love writing. Although I am not a professional writer, I still have great passion in writing.

 

 

 

I know, sometimes, my writing might sound ‘ordinary’ to you or you hardly value my writing because I rarely use bombastic words like J.K Rowling or my stories isn’t as hillarious as Sophille. Well, it doesn’t matter right when you are given a free space to write whatever you want from your personal experiences, physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and sociologically. Whatever the reason is, it still doesn’t matter because this is your own space; my space.

 

Now… the point of being sued. The possibility for this to happen in this curryegg’s blog is even hard, as hard as digging gold. Well, this is a personal blog and most of the idea is based on my personal experiences or stories. So, it is rather hard for me to step on other tails – EXCEPT: if this happens, I can assure you that it might be a big, BIG ISSUE.. Besides, I am sensitive to the law (and I am still learning) and I don’t want to get into trouble for some silly mistakes that I make.

 

Since it is not because of A & B, why I still have this idea to stop myself from blogging?

 

Seriously, I really don’t know should I…. stop? This idea has been knocking my door in my right brain for days.

 

One of the main reasons is because of…. my future career. You see, I want to be a registered counselor in future and I have been writing about my dreams very often since the day I stepped into this counseling and psychology fields. Of course, I can blog too even if I am a counselor now because everyone own the ‘freedom of speech’ right. No doubts.

 

Lately, I realized that exposing myself too much to the public in the blogosphere might not help me in my counseling because my potential clients will know a lot about me – everything in my life via my writing and photos. I am imagining that my clients who are coming to my counseling firm might have these so-called ‘curiosity:

 

Dialogue from the potential clients who know CurryEgg:

 

1. Hi Dr Kelly, I know that you are the only child. So, how do you bear with family pressure?
2. Kelly, are you sure that someone compare you with Megan Fox? He is such a nut because you are way better than the fox..
3. Actually, the reason why I am coming to this session is to see whether did you photoshop your photos?
4. Aren’t you saying that you are using Existential Theory? Why are you asking about my past? No Freud please.
5. Dr Egg, your writing is awesome! Can you please continue blogging because I am losing my weekly dose and this is my issue.
6. Kelly, you like cam-whoring a lot hor?
7. You didn’t wear contact lenses? Why with the no specs photos?
8. My last question, why CurryEgg?
   

 

Well, I still can’t imagine the worst situation that I might face in the future because… I haven’t met any yet at this moment. However, hearing the word ‘curryegg’ from my client during counseling session has made me think hard. Imagine my client accidentally or intentionally  addressing me as Dr. Curry or Ms Eggie.. =_=

 

 “Kelly, you like cam-whoring a lot hor?”, asked by a sacastic client.

 

What if my blog is slowly growing and earning a wider readership over the years? Let say, when I am ready to work in the near future, I might bump into my loyal readers who come for counseling. Will it be a awkward? Will there be any problem or issue for me?

 

Because, before I manage to understand my client in the very first session, my client already know who I am. Is it something positive?

 

The only positive thing that I can think is…. I might be able to create a trusting bond between me and my client easily because client know who I am. It is just that, I feel a bit spooky that the client know more about me than I know more about him/her.

 

Well, will this be a good sign? Or bad one? (as for me, it’s like asking to wear specs or contact lenses)

 

Btw, I wear specs.

 

Emmmmmmmmmm…. I am still thinking. Deep consideration. If the cons beat the pros, I might consider to stop blogging or shutting down this blog. Then, continue with my old-traditional personal diary.

 

I don’t know. Not till when I am given another few days to think about this. If you have any suggestion, opinion, sharing or critics, you are welcome to leave them in this comment box. Thank you.

New Era Orange?

I remembered my mum used to teach me that orange is in round shape. Even my dad and elementary teachers said the same thing too.

 

However, today I don’t get it. I doubt their statements are no longer correct. What happen to this orange? It’s obviously longer. It’s like an oval shape to me. The new era orange?

 

 

 

I named this as the:

 

Orange Egg!!!

 

=D

Too Much Drama

Of late, I am such a dramatic person.

 

Well, don’t get me wrong. I don’t mean that I am turning into a histrionic person – not at all. (If I do, well.. I am not sure what will happen to me and my blog. One thing for sure, everything will be covered with bling bling stuff. Cool!).

 

So, no histrionic but dramatic. What’s this all about?

 

I didn’t update my blog in these few days because I was packed with my life in campus. Lol.. I sound like a very dedicated student although I am not. Am I?

 

 

Here are some summaries on what had happened in my life in this whole, exciting week. I’m trying to reduce my procrastination in writing about my stories. So many things to write but so little time.. =(

 

#1 First of all, it is about the election day in my campus, University of Malaya.

 

I was one of the representatives for Tan Kee Aun who is the candidate. I believe you have read about this in my previous post. No? Well, read choose freedom because you don’t wanna miss any of the pictures, right? =)

 

We, the Green team were busy running for the campaign in the campus for the past few days (since Tuesday to Wednesday). It was a short period, only 2 days (to do our manifesto legally). So far, this is the shortest campaign I had ever experienced in the campus because previously, it took at least 1 week to run the campaign.

 

 

Although it was just a short moment, it was an amazing one. I could never imagine how adventurous and wonderful the journey could be, running for the campaign with a bunch of AWESOME PEOPLE. Yes. They are terribly awesome and I couldn’t find any other better vocabulary to define them.

 

 

I will never forget my first meeting with the few of them: Adilah, Firdaus, Terrance, Ruth, Gorge and Lavania in the MPMUM meeting room to paint the black and white banners. I was quite an introvert (which weird in my case) that day when I met them because I was new and had no idea on how to initiate nor join in their conversations (since they already know each other). Plus, my English isn’t that fluent. Well, I don’t have good English background and most of my friends and family members speak Chinese or Malay. So, I felt slightly apart.

 

Anyway, it didn’t take long for me to get in to the group because all of them are so friendly and warm. They make me feel like I have known them for ages. That’s the reason why I say, they are the AWESOME PEOPLE with positive energy. I’m lucky to be invited to join the team. Thank you Kee Aun, and my dear friends.. *hugs*

 

 

Somehow, it didn’t work quite well with Gorge during in our first meeting. There was an awkward silence in the beginning of our conversation.

 

Me: Hi Gorge.

Gorge: What’s up?

Me: Emm… good day.

Gorge: *silence*Good day?

Me: *puzzle* (can’t I say good day? something new mah)

Gorge: *shocked* Good day?

Me: Well… I’m joking..

Gorge: *turning to Lavania and Kee Aun* Can you believe it? She said good day?

Me: *blushed* Well… o_O

 

Ahhww.. seriously, I was embarrassed for answering him with the answer. I thought of, why not saying something different, other than fine? or great? Treating it as a joke. Didn’t know the respond will be…. urgh.

 

I told Ilyana on the next day and she laughed like mad.. fine.. =_=

 

*****

 

Back to my story about the election day.

 

Tan Kee Aun failed to get into the MPMUM list with 2800 votes. The votes aren’t enough for him to join the MPMUM this year. No dancing in the rain with joy, shouting and singing the song of freedom and no buffet (ignore this part.. i am currently hungry over here while blogging this. lol).

 

The news did disappoint me when Kee Aun announced his loss in the election on Thursday evening (about 7.30pm). I was upset. We had been working so hard for the campaign but failed to get in to the final round. Somehow, he did cheer me up (and other sms readers) with a motivating and thankful words in the end of the message.

 

 

 

“Tan Kee Aun – 2800 votes. It wasn’t enough. But we have gained so much more than that. Much much more.. =) Thank you for all your support. Thank you for believing in us. Thank you for being free”.

 

He is right. We have actually gained a lot even though we failed to make it into the final stage. We have gained a good bonding of friendship especially among the 7 of us (Adilah, Firdaus, Lavania, Jess, Kee Aun, Ruth & I).

 

 

 

 

 

 

Of course, not to forget Jon and Terrance too. We ran, we sang, we danced, we screamed, we laughed, we hugged and we joked together in these past few days. Besides, we have sent the message that freedom is a choice.

 

 

 

        

 

 

To have freedom, you should know how to play your part: that’s to know how to choose for yourself. Next, we have entertained so many parties – the students, the lecturers and even the crew from NTV7. Lol..

 

 

I know they love us so much because we are awesome. Lol.. Watch this if you don’t believe in me.

 

 

Last but not least, we have gained a lot of trust and unconditional support from the students who believe in us. Of course, the credit should be given to Kee Aun because he really played his part well and leaded the whole team with organizeed strategy. He is a real good leader, who is not just ambitious in achieving his dream but also a friend who will care for his team-mates. For example, he will let the team to rest and encourage some of us to attend classes. Ahhww… isn’t he just so nice?

 

In my case, I have learned a few great lessons during in this period of time:

 

1. You can be friends with almost anybody (it’s just a matter of if you want to)
2. How to turn friends into family
3. Be daring.
4. How to sing properly (oops)
5. Leadership skill
6. How to persuade the lecturers to allow the team to do their manifesto.
7. How to accept & deal with rejection
8. Green look good on me
9. Get into TV (with attention grabbing performances of course. lol)

 

 

Thank God for everything you have planned for me. Thank you for showing these lovely people to me as I have learned so much from them. Hope to see them again in future (which I believe we will). Yes? =)

 

#2 Bones Cracking & Muscles Pain

 

If you still remember, I did tell you about my ‘virgin excitement’ for taking acting class this semester. Acting class is something new to me because I have never taken any ‘artistic class’ other than art and music class.

 

Somehow, the excitement slowly reduces. It turns into a scary experience – Bone Cracking and Muscles Pain class. Why? You’re asking me why? I have never been told that students in the acting class will have to do exercises (like yoga)  in the class for a straight 2 hours. Well, it wasn’t a big problem for me to do all the streching stuff. But at least, tell me earlier because I was struggling while doing all those moves with my JEANS.

 

I know. I should wear something appropriate during in the class because we have been told earlier. But because of I have to help Kee Aun with the campaign, I couldn’t wear anything else, except jeans (as i have to walk all around the campus area).

 

So, in the end of the class, my bones and my muscles were in great pain – like an old lady who fall down from 20 stairs.. =(

 

  Self-timer

 

However, the funny thing is.. I was energetic when it comes to CAM-WHORING! You know me right.. when there are mirrors… you will see my images from the mirror in my camera.. kekekz.. XD

 

 

This time, I have my friends with me… siap dengan posing lagi.. lol.

 

 

It is good to have this collection of photos because it will record all my memories including the bones and muscles pain experiences.. =_=

 

 

 

#3 Kabhi khushi kabhi gam

 

Rani, one of my coursemates took her ‘salwar kameez’ (Preetilata told me in facebook about the name of this beautiful costume) to class on Friday and she persuaded me to wear it. In fact, she forced me! *serious tone*.

 

 

Ok lah.. I am just joking. I was the one who wanna try it as I was so curious.

 

I got ‘wow’ from my audience and they said I look nice. Yeah, I do agree with them because this costume fits me well. Somehow, I look funny because the trousers look so Aladdin to me.. =P

 

Why he is so tall. Zz.

 

What do you think? Nice?

 

 

 

I guess, there will have no more drama in the coming week. It will be a more serious and formal one, because I am start giving counseling session to my clients. I have received a few appointments and I shall prepare myself starting by now.

 

Thank you for giving me such a memorable experiences. Love everyone of you here. Muacks.

 

P/s: Thank to Benjamin for your awesome photos.

Choose Freedom

You have no idea on how thrilled I was in this whole 26th January 2010.

 

Seriously, it is like my never-will-be-forgotten day. Firstly, I got to witness how awesome people speak, work and behave. Secondly, I get the chance to be in a totally green, expressive and with positive energy team. Then, I could experience how a real speaker speak in front of a big crowd with totally strange, unfamiliar faces.

 

 

Is it awesome, or what?

 

I can see the criteria of a good leader and speaker in Tan Kee Aun whenever he is giving his speech. Even when he is just giving a small presentation in class, you can already have this good feeling about him. Well, how do I know? I was his classmate before, in one of the subject and I was impressed with his presentation. It is not just because of the point he has, but also the level of confidence he has in himself. Besides, he can connect very well with people around him (that’s why he is a good speaker and leader)

 

He has the voice, he has the heart and he has the brain to connect with people. This is why, I admire his talent so much and his willingness and sincerity in helping the students by improving the facilities in UM. I can feel that.

 

 

Based on these values, I agree in helping him for the campaign – for the student council thingy. Well, I am not doing any campaign, not even close to marketing or publicity. I am sharing whatever data I have key in, in my brain and heart; whatever I have experienced.

 

  

 

At the same time, I wish to share how impressed I am with Tan Kee Aun’s fans GREEN t-shirt- Choose Freedom! Ah man! This is so awesome! I love the design and the message on the shirt so, so much. So creative and eye-catching!

 

At the same time, it has reminded me about William Glasser’s Theory in Counseling – Choice Theory. He highlights that always remember everyone has the choice to live the life he/she wants.

 

 

I had never have any green shirt as green as this (because I have this feeling that I will look darker). But I must say, I look great in this shirt, right? Oh ya… =)

 

Taken in my Acting class by Azian. Thx u dear. Now I can see my hair from my back. I need another haircut!

 

Green fits the objective too because Kee Aun is having a big heart to make UM a greener place to live. I like his idea in reducing polystyrene use by replacing it with a safer and eco-friendly stuff. I am an anti-polystyrene and I am trying to reduce the usage in the cafe by bringing own plastic container. I guess, studying chemistry and having the knowledge in biology and Science have aware me to take care of the Earth from global warming.

 

Anyway, I do find out another new thing – something which I have never seen in my campus. It is the new Speaker’s Corner which located not far from the book shop.

 

 

I remember seeing this in the Western movie in which everyone is given the freedom to speak for whatever they want (freedom is choice!). Of course, there are some boundaries which one’s must be taken care of – like not touching certain sensitive issue especially about the ethnic and religion.

They just lunched it.

   

Ever since yesterday, I have spotted a few reporters and video cameraman in my campus area. Anyone has seen me in tv? tell me if you did. lol..

 

I managed to snap a few pictures and also a video clip in order to feed my (and also yours?) curiosity.

 

 

I wonder, will I be able to step on this small stage and speak in front of the crowds? I guess I can – if there is something I wanna fight for.

 

 

*start switching on my imagination mode*

 

P/s: I did a full 2 hours stretching exercise in my acting class this morning. Oh dear.. it is so painful. All my muscles are aching, right now.. at this moment, especially my muscles on my stomach, hands and legs. I will be getting a bigger biceps, very, very soon..

 

Ahhwwwwwww…..

 

P/s/s: Glad to have a great dinner with my parents and my brother. It is good to get everyone gathered at the dining table during dad’s birthday. Calvin is flying to Hong Kong in another few hours. I know I am going to miss him, so do my parents. Safe journey dear bro.. (well, no point writing this here since he doesn’t read my blog. ceh~)

Unlock With Right Key

You know what?

 

I am doing the ‘last minute work….. again.

Haizz… I wonder, when will I turn into an ‘early worker’ like Asha, Soon Tatt or Shu Huan? (people whom I know good in early work)

 

When ar?

 

I’m probably tired of figuring out the answer. I don’t know when or how to be one and I am not sure do I have to be one? What a dilemma thought I have now. According to Myer Briggs’s personality test, I am in the ENFP category. One of the weaknesses that I will always remember about the ENFP-ian is the habit of being last minute.

 

Think of the fashion designer, the music composer, the artist or the writer. Most work is done spontaneously and nearing the deadline. I guess, even if they do it early, they will still end up not finishing their work because there will be too much of idea running in their heads and they have difficulty in finalizing their works.

 

Lol..

 

In my case, I have problem in picking up ideas. Well, I don’t mean I have qualities like a fashion designer, artist, musician or etc. No. I don’t think I am nearing those jobs nor the creative level. Anyhow, I do have difficulties in choosing the most ideal idea as there are so many thoughts which are created within hours, or maybe minutes. Well, well, well… those fast-pace thoughts are mostly successfully being created during critical moment – that is nearing deadlines.

 

Don’t tell mum. She will assume that I am lazy and good in giving excuses (which is not, k?)

 

So, this is the reason why, I am claiming that, I am doing last minute work, again. It happened just yesterday in which I have to submit my manila card size poster today (25th Jan 2010). I did manage to do it earlier although this work had been given like 3 weeks in advance.. haizz… why I so like that? =_=

 

Yesterday, another critical day where I squeezed my brain juice as hard as I could to get a few drops of inspiration so that I can finish my work on time with satisfaction. Although I am a last minute worker, I still want my work to be perfect (talking about perfect, I have written a post about being perfectionist before).

 

This time, I didn’t work alone because I have both my dad and mum’s help. Since this poster is targeted to employee who work in an organization, seeking advice from both the adults may help me in doing a better job – and I am right =)

 

After the ‘meeting’ with both my parents, I came up with this idea:

 

 

 

Seriously, I love this work so much – simple, professional and creative. Well, I don’t know how it appears to you, but I wish it looks in these ways.

 

 

It took me like whole evening till midnight to finish this up. The 'red heart’ took a long time to be done. Lotsa work.. Anyway, I am satisfy with it.

 

Before submitting my work to my lecturer, a photo of me & the poster must be taken or else, you might be questioning am I the real owner. So, here you are, the proof =P

 

I guess, I am too obsess with it or maybe too clever because I am using it for my counseling publicity. I am currently looking for clients and hope that this poster will help me attract your attention.. ;)

 

 

Thank mum and dad for the help and advice. Love you so much <3

 

P/s: There are still rooms for improvement. Maybe you can share with me on how the poster speaks to you and how can I improve it for better? Comments, critics and suggestions are most welcome. tq.

 

    

Current Obsession:

 

My very first light pink nail polish. Bought this for RM10 in the Beauty Fair (forgotten the exact name of the theme) at Midvalley, 2 weeks ago. Love it so much.

 

 

Tomorrow will be a fun day – because I will be doing the ‘green’ work.. ;)